healing vibes for my boy

[Chappie]

I'm so very sorry for your losses x x

 

[ILuvCowparsely]

Well it is a year today - a day I knew would make me sad, crying as I write this. I miss my boy so much and wish we had so many years to share as he was only 20 - a livery has just turned 33 I wanted him to reach that age. I want him back so much, but I know it cannot be, just feel utterly gutted and lost without him. Still not looked over his stable door which is next to the house. I cannot see his casket it would hurt too much. Friends covered him in one of his rugs so I know he is there but still, they leave such a hole when they leave, specially when they are taken so suddenly.

Life is so precious and we are guilty of thinking life won't change but it does.
I feel I needed to post this specially for all those kind people who followed our thread.

Thank you again those who were with me to the end. Means allot

 

[Sealine]

I'm sorry you are feeling so sad. It sounds like you've had a very tough time and as I'm sure you know the first anniversary of a loss is always the worst. In time I hope you will be able to remember your beautiful boy with a smile instead of sadness. Take care and be kind to yourself.

 

[Ratface]

I'm so sorry that you're still feeling such a gaping hole from the loss of your lovely horse.
Unfortunately, from my many years of experience of animal losses, I know that the only way forward is trudging through it, hour after hour, day after day, month after month.
I've found that, after the first year anniversary, it seems to get a little less dreadful and the happy memories are able to surface a bit.
Deep condolences for the loss of your lovely horse.

 

[SEL]

I'm not far off the year anniversary of big M. It feels like yesterday and ages ago all at the same time. Missing them is a sign we loved them xx

 

[tristar]

huge hugs x

 

[Michen]

I hear ya. The one year anniversary is tough. Frankly they all are, I only have to thing of Basil 7 years on to choke back the tear and swallow a big lump in my throat.

But even if not yet, I promise you'll be able to look at photos and smile and "control" the sadness.

Hugs x

 

[Laurac13]

Thinking of you today and sending virtual hugs, the first anniversary is the worst I lost my heart horse in 2005 aged 18 yrs in very similar circumstances- unsuccessful colic operation. I always feel sad every year on the date but buy flowers on his anniversary’s as a memory of him. It takes a long long time for the pain to pass but it will get a little easier as time passes. Be kind to yourself today eat chocolate drink wine soak in the bath whatever you feel like. it hurts right now because you loved him so much he was a lucky boy, take care of yourself x

 

[SO1]

I lost Homey on 29 July and so his anniversary was not long ago. He was only 20 as well and I also thought he was the type to go on to his 30s as well.

I completely understand what you are going through it is awful and I still think of him every day his casket in my bedroom.

I am getting a pony vetted on Tues and talked in my head to Homey imagining what Homey might be saying to me I have been doing this more recently. I feel quite tearful at times and I am not sure if this feeling of sadness about his loss with go away.

The anniversary of Homey's death was 29 July and I viewed the pony on 31 July. I had almost given up on the idea of another forester.....after so many enquiries and suitable viewings. I just hope he passes his vetting.

 

[Hollylee1989]

Sending you a huge cuddle, keep those special memories together close.
Our first pony left us in 2001, still hurts going to the woodland where he was scattered. Our big lad left us in 2012, still make me cry when I see his casket.

 

[ILuvCowparsely]

Thank you all, I got the call at just gone 12.30am to say he was suffering, I think I cried for two hours. Felt so empty he was such a character, I called him my main man ( term of endearment)

I agree with you all every year on his mums day of crossing the rainbow, I always put a notification on the yard group as I do with all those I lost, its a way to keep their memory alive. Michen I know what you mean staring too long at their photos or videos hurts so much a lump comes up and the tears fall down.

I did watch his bouncing video today and made me just want to hug him, as I miss those hugs as the others are not tactful like he was. xx

 

[misst]

We lost one 16 years ago on valentines day. I can sometimes look at a few pictures I have up but I still cannot bear to look at the photo album of his adventures. We lost our old girlie 9 years ago and our big boy 11 years ago - I have a massive lump in my throat now thinking of them. Such special animals horses, so much joy and so much pain. x hugs x ILC and everyone else missing their horses today.

 

[Micky]

So so sorry for your loss, heartbreaking, be kind to yourself, you did everything you could , he couldn’t have been loved more.

 

[mustardsmum]

I also lost my dear old boy a year ago yesterday so my heart goes out to you as it’s hard when all those feelings resurface. Not a day goes by when I don’t think about him, he is buried in my field and I miss him terribly. Bizarrely I had been trying to find a new horse for riding since lockdown but nothing came close to him. He was semi retired. A few days after loosing him, a pony popped up on NFED who belonged to someone we knew through pc. I half heartedly went to view. His owner knew I’d lost a pony and let me ride hers for a couple of weeks. I brought him home and he will have been here with me a year in September. I swear my old boy sent him to me. I hope you start to smile when you think of him, grief takes us all on different journeys but eventually it does get easier