I'm so sorry i let you down Peggy....

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I don't know how many of you saw my last post about peggy as it was removed on the grounds that they saw it as advertising/spam even though it genuinely was a desperate attempt to save her.....:(

my parents have put their foot down (particularly Dad) and tommorow morning my pretty Peggy-Sue (aged just 8) is headed for the potters :( they say she is dangerous to ride and maybe it would be easier to accept if she had a nasty temperament and was dangerous due to behavioural problems but its not its all because of a recurring back problem and she can't be kept as a companion because she doesn't cope if left on her own.my instructor (who is 75) says she would love to have her to breed from but all her children have said quite simply NO!

peggy has the sweetest temperament you could find: she came to you in the field and just craved love and cuddles and kisses....

there is so much else i could say about Peggy and i'll never stop blaming myself no matter how much people say it isn't my fault etc....

if i could really talk to peggy i would tell her not to wait for me at the rainbow bridge, idon't deserve her willing patience. when i bought her i promised her i would take care of her and protect her and help her fulfill her potential. when she first did her back in i promised her i would do everything to heal her. when my parents decided we had to sell her i promised her i would find her the best home she deserved... when nobody was interested and she did her back-in i promised i would never give up.........i have not fulfilled a single one of these promises since last summer and for that i can never be forgiven

so sorry for the long post but i had to put this somewhere
 
You haven't let her down and you haven't given up on her.

At least there won't be any more pain hunny.

I promised my horse I would find a way to fix her, to help her.

I spent four and a half years and thousands of pounds trying.

As the vet walked onto the yard, to put her to sleep, I held Dizzy's neck and cried, told her I was so sorry I hadn't been able to keep my promise.

Your lass will wait for you at the bridge.
 
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Agree with Mrs Mozart.
Just one thing though - does she really have to go to Potters? Could you not have her PTS quietly at home. It's a nicer end for them.
 
I didn't see your last post but I'm so sorry that you are in this situation.

I know that there is nothing that I can say that will make this OK, but please don't blame yourself. You have obviously done your best to make others listen to your opinion that she has a back problem and you have tried to rehome her with your instructor.

It's impossible to have control of a situation such as this when you aren't an adult and the ultimate decision comes down to your parents.

Lots and lots of hugs. I really feel for you. Have you said goodbye to Peggy yet?
 
You have made the hardest decision you can possibly have to make when owning a horse. That means you are brave and compassionate. You will know that Peggy Sue wont be abused, in pain or hungry/thirsty..... There are far worse fates for a horse with problems.
 
I am sorry that I missed your earlier post.

Please don't beat yourself up - if Peggy has a back problem, then breeding might have been meant more pain for her and if it's genetic, it may have been passed to her foals. Over the years, I have found there are very, very few horses with a true nasty temperament and 99.5% of the time, it's caused by pain and you can't always make them better.

Many horses on this planet don't even get a sniff of a person who cares about them. It sounds to me like Peggy was a very lucky girl to have found you.

You can choose to believe me or not, but it really ISN'T your fault. Please do remember that.

At home would probably be best for her but if it is Potter's, they'll treat her with compassion and thoughtfulness.

PM me if you need to.
 
How old are you LRR? Pretty harsh of your parents to tell you she is going there.

It does sound worse than it is however (going there, if there is no other option) and she won't know.

Very hard for you.
 
she has been kept at my instructors for the last few months as she is happier when with lots of horses.....i will catch her tomorrow and its a long walk fom the field to the yard so hopefully i'll have just a little time to say goodbye

i will try and have her pts at home (well my instructors yard) but although my parents say they don't mind about the money i know as far as dad is concerned he wasted £3000 the day we bought her, another £500 on two saddles (she broke the first one a week after we bought it) and whatever amount the physio/vet has cost...thankfully my instructor has been very kind and not chared us for peggy's keep as she feels guilty as her daughter-in-law sold peggy to us and she thought we would be the perfect match. added to this my instructor is very old fashioned and her son is a huntsman and i'm only 16...:(
 
Bless you Hun.

I'm so sorry your parents feel the need to do this. Just please know that Peggy won't have a clue, they are Proffesional people.

Huge hugs xxxx

You have not let her down x
 
Something massively wrong with me tonight as I am now sat bawling. So heartbreaking that you don't think you so deserve for Peggy to wait for you at the bridge. I don't think I have ever heard anything so sad on here before. So sad that you would think that way. You poor girl. I am so sorry you will lose little Peggy. Do you have a picture of her to post? X
 
i don't know how to post photos :(

... i just tried asking dad for pts instead but as with everything around here it all comes down to money :( and i can always count on his complet lack of sensitivity to kick me when i'm down....

"but if shes sedated she can't go for meat and what are you going to do with a dead horse...its completely impractical"

thank you evrybody for your kind comments
 
You haven't let her down. You have given her love, care, confidence in you, and time, all of which are priceless.

However hard it is though, sometimes you have to let them go to a better place, free from pain. A short life, lived with love, is better than years on earth without.

Big hugs sweetheart.xx
 
Be brave LRR , I hope you can get your parents to have it done on the yard but if not they are professionals at potters it will be ok.
You are being very grown up , sometimes you can't make it right for them , life is very very tough sometimes I will think of you tomorrow.
 
Sweet Jesus, tell your Dad I will pay for the injection if that's how you want this to happen. I bloody well mean it. You tell him.
 
LRR if your instructors son is huntsmen he could pts at home using gun, or get local knackerman out- they can still be used then. But as said previously potters are professionals and Peggy will know nothing.
 
Billie1007 said:
Something massively wrong with me tonight as I am now sat bawling. So heartbreaking that you don't think you so deserve for Peggy to wait for you at the bridge. I don't think I have ever heard anything so sad on here before. So sad that you would think that way. You poor girl. I am so sorry you will lose little Peggy. Do you have a picture of her to post? X
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I was just welling up and thinking the same. You most certainly HAVE NOT let her down. Thinking of you tomorrow LRR, big hugs xxx
 
So very sorry, what an awful thing to happen. You have done your best and your pony has known love and are, which some never do have. Peggy will not know what is happening, it is us humans who suffer with our emotions.

If your instructors son is a huntsman, could they not take her. Others on here have said how good huntsmen are when it is the time and they sort out everything.

You can also ask for Potters to come to the yard, they will still manage everything for you if that is what your Dad wants.

Do hope you can have your time to say goodbye, trasre your memories they will bring comfort. Do hope you have local friends to support you at this time.
 
LittleRocketRider said:
i don't know how to post photos :(

... i just tried asking dad for pts instead but as with everything around here it all comes down to money :( and i can always count on his complet lack of sensitivity to kick me when i'm down....

"but if shes sedated she can't go for meat and what are you going to do with a dead horse...its completely impractical"

thank you evrybody for your kind comments
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You poor thing. :(

Possibly a bit late at this hour, but you mentioned that the instructor's son (I think!) was a huntsman? Would he be able to arrange the hunt to come to the yard and pts? Much cheaper than vet and she still gets to go in a place she loves and is cared for in. If she isn't sedated, then they will take her for the hounds. Sounds grim, I know, but I'm just thinking of her last hours being spent at home. Whatever you decide, this is not your fault, hun.xx
 
I'm so sorry it has come to this, what a shame for a youngster to be feeling so low. If your pony is in pain it probably is the best thing.
 
If she's pts via gun not injection she wont have to be sedated, then the hunt can take her. cheaper, better for you and your dad can put a sock in it. x
 
I'm in bed sobbing for you both..

You have not let her down, and when it's your time, she will be there for you..

Your dad is letting YOU down, in my opinion..

Billie, what a humbling offer.. Big hug to you too..

Be brave xx
 
Oh sweetie of course she will wait for you. It's so difficult to say goodbye but better than a lifetime of pain for her, you have done everything you could. Keep a little piece of her mane. Hugs x
 
Billie1007 said:
Sweet Jesus, tell your Dad I will pay for the injection if that's how you want this to happen. I bloody well mean it. You tell him.
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thank you for this lovely offer as much as would love to accept an offer like this and as much as i want this for peggy i could tell my parents till i'm blue all over...mum is upset enough as it is and dad (who does mean well)sees it as a situation to be dealt with :(
 
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