Leo Walker
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I had the osteo out to Leo today and the weirdest thing happened. As well as being an osteo she does reiki and other stuff. The sort of thing I dont pay any attention to as it sounds like nonsense and something she only mentioning in passing afterwards. He is still very funny with strangers and didn't really want her touching him so she was treating him and doing myofasical release stuff. Just very gently to try and ease him into being treated.
She was working on his hindquarters and I was sitting in front of him. He suddenly went from tense and rigid to very soft. He pushed his head right into me and was stood with his head against me with his eyes closed, and I put my head against his head. He felt like he had just taken a deep breath and let go of all the tension and anger and decided to relax.
Then I felt a wave of sadness, more than that really, just absolute sorrow. It made me feel sick it was so strong. It literally felt like it was pouring out of him into me and I was drowning in it. I cant really describe it but it wasnt like anything I have ever experienced before. It only lasted a minute or so, then just stopped. When I looked up at the osteo she had tears in her eyes and said hes been very sad for a long time, no one has had anytime for him, or words to that effect. Then she carried on working on him and his eyes opened, his head came back up and he started checking my pockets for carrots that he knew I had.
She worked on him and left him loose and relaxed. He was radiating happiness and positively bouncing when I put him out so clearly feeling good.
Then driving home it happened again, feeling sick and just really, really strong waves of sadness. I thought I was going to have to pull the car over it was that strong. Then as quick as it started it stopped again.
The only thing I can think is that having experienced that when I was with him and disregarded it a bit, when I was on my own in the quiet in the car, the feelings came back. The whole thing was just massively weird and horribly upsetting. I've never felt such intense feelings like that before and there arent words to really describe it. But I'd testify in court it came from him and he was pushing it onto me and letting it go.
I know when he came he was very, very shut down and miserable and I've spent hours and hours and hours with him, just grooming him and working him from the ground etc. We dont ever fight with him no matter how hard he tries to start one. I do lots of clicker training and positive reinforcement. Hes now stopped trying to kill everyone who touches him and is a very different horse to the one that arrived. So I hope if those feelings did come from him that he doesnt actually feel like that anymore.
Sitting here now typing it out it sounds ridiculous! I'd roll my eyes and close the thread if anyone else posted nonsense like this. But I just wondered if anyone else ever had anything like that happen or am I just delusional?!
She was working on his hindquarters and I was sitting in front of him. He suddenly went from tense and rigid to very soft. He pushed his head right into me and was stood with his head against me with his eyes closed, and I put my head against his head. He felt like he had just taken a deep breath and let go of all the tension and anger and decided to relax.
Then I felt a wave of sadness, more than that really, just absolute sorrow. It made me feel sick it was so strong. It literally felt like it was pouring out of him into me and I was drowning in it. I cant really describe it but it wasnt like anything I have ever experienced before. It only lasted a minute or so, then just stopped. When I looked up at the osteo she had tears in her eyes and said hes been very sad for a long time, no one has had anytime for him, or words to that effect. Then she carried on working on him and his eyes opened, his head came back up and he started checking my pockets for carrots that he knew I had.
She worked on him and left him loose and relaxed. He was radiating happiness and positively bouncing when I put him out so clearly feeling good.
Then driving home it happened again, feeling sick and just really, really strong waves of sadness. I thought I was going to have to pull the car over it was that strong. Then as quick as it started it stopped again.
The only thing I can think is that having experienced that when I was with him and disregarded it a bit, when I was on my own in the quiet in the car, the feelings came back. The whole thing was just massively weird and horribly upsetting. I've never felt such intense feelings like that before and there arent words to really describe it. But I'd testify in court it came from him and he was pushing it onto me and letting it go.
I know when he came he was very, very shut down and miserable and I've spent hours and hours and hours with him, just grooming him and working him from the ground etc. We dont ever fight with him no matter how hard he tries to start one. I do lots of clicker training and positive reinforcement. Hes now stopped trying to kill everyone who touches him and is a very different horse to the one that arrived. So I hope if those feelings did come from him that he doesnt actually feel like that anymore.
Sitting here now typing it out it sounds ridiculous! I'd roll my eyes and close the thread if anyone else posted nonsense like this. But I just wondered if anyone else ever had anything like that happen or am I just delusional?!