Lethal inection

He was such a lovely horse and never gave me any trouble. I had just been wondering how he would cope without my girl in the summer, as they used to come in at night together into the sand as they were both lami prone. I was thinking he would be lonely. Poor little man. I really will miss him.

I am truly sorry Wagtail, but if it's any consolation reading your above post just made me think that sometimes things seem meant to be. He won't face the stress of being lonely and it was obviously his time too. As sad and heartbreaking as it is when we lose them, sometimes it can work as a blessing in disguise the way it happens, although it would be much nicer if we never had to say goodbye at all.X
 
Oh bloody hell, so sorry. All I can say is that at least you need not worry about him having to cope without her and that the awfulness of having to make a decision for him has been taken out of your hands.

RIP both old friends.
 
Oh God you've had a horrific 2 days. Look after yourself. I hope this doesn't sound heartless, but if I recall correctly you had sacrificed your riding to look after these 2 dear horses. Perhaps its time to do something for you, a riding horse may help heal the void in your heart. I hope saying that doesn't cause any offence. I just know if I were in your shoes I'd need a new focus.

Thinking about you at this terrible time
 
I'm so sorry to hear what you have gone through the last few days.
Take a bit of time out, if you were Essex I would come and do your yard for you tomorrow.
 
Sorry for any misunderstanding. The poor boy who died today was the horse I was borrowing to ride. He'd been a livery with me for five years and was an absolute darling. I loved him as I would my own. He absolutely adored my mare, who wasn't always very nice to him! But she was very bonded to him.

His owner and myself were comforting ourselves today with the thought that they are now both 'up there' together, with her still biting his bum.
 
Thank you! I do feel utterly drained and exhausted. Dealing with that poor boy this morning was just awful. There was nothing anyone could do. One of my liveries did some mucking out for me which really helped. I just cannot believe they are both gone.
 
You need sometime out. of course you are drained and exhausted. you have been on emotional roller coaster recently and you are only human. please please look after yourself. Please take advantage of any offers of help. You have many friends on here. x x
 
Blooming heck wagtail :-( more hugs for you. Rip horses. Nearly a year since I lost one of mine to colic, I'm petrified of losing his buddy. You definitely deserve a duvet day for yourself.
 
Oh my goodness what an awful few days you have had. Penny really was beautiful. So sorry to hear about the other boy too. Life can be very cruel sometimes. You are in my thoughts xx
 
Just caught up on this. Sorry for the double whammy of losing two, however I'm glad its finally over for you and your mare's rollercoaster ride. RIP Penny and her friend, and hugs to you.
 
Finally, waking up this morning I am finding some peace. Memories of my mare's death are fading and I am just thinking what a good horse she was. In her prime we would hack out for miles just the two of us. No obstacle could stand in our way. I remember getting caught in deep brambles and thistles but there was a lovely meadow the other side of the fence. The fence was standard post and rail and she jumped it for me with just a squeeze of my legs from a standstill and out of the brambles. She would go over ditches, hedges and through water. Such a good horse. I do miss her so much.
 
a small step to recovery...glad to hear you are feeling a little bit better, your girl will be happy for you and there are lots of others on here who will also be pleased.
 
Thank you. I have no regrets but I get huge waves of guilt. I know it had to be done, but I feel like I tricked her. She was really happy that morning and I put her to sleep. But I had to for her sake though it doesn't seem that way when they are so perky and happy.

Yes, she was a great horse. I won't find another one like her. She was not easy at first. It took a long time and a lot of work to get that bond. I just don't know if I can face all that again.
 
Guilt is natural, but you did absolutely the right thing. She went happy and bright.

I'm sure many of us on here have kept an animal going that bit too long and wish we had made the call earlier. You tried everything, it didn't work but she was happy at the end.

It is probably too early for you to think of getting another. Take it steady and who knows what might crop up in a while, you may find that just the right horse is out there looking for you right now.
 
I understand how you are feeling completely Wagtail, guilt is part of the course I think, even when we are acting in the horse's best interests.
You've got to remember that you saved her from that suffering that would have inevitably happened, both physically and mentally.

I have a mare who is also very special to me and who the vet suspects is cushingoid. I have made the decision that she will be the last, as I know I will feel the same as you.
That being said I'm a big believer in ''never say never', so be kind to yourself and see what unfolds in time. You might feel differently a few months down the line, or you might be happy with not replacing her with another. Either way you've got to do what is right for you, will be thinking of you.
 
With her prognosis/issues, better for her to go happy at the point she did, than wait until she was suffering. She didn't know anything about it, don't feel guilty for being brave and making the right decision. Don't rush thinking about another one, I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, and when the time is right, the right one will find you. That may be weeks, that may be years, who knows.
 
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