BeBopTalulah
Well-Known Member
I've been around horses all my life. I do no claim to be an expert, or a great rider, but essential I 'know' horses and have always been comfortable around them. I enjoy working with them, I have backed and broken my own (quiet) mare myself and have never had any major problems with confidence. I think I have a realistic and sensible respect and I am always aware of the potential dangers.
My 4 year old homebred mare died last April very suddenly and I am still devastated. Ridiculous as it seems, I struggled to set foot back on the yard, walk past her box etc. Apart from the odd hack out on a friend's ex police horse I haven't been working with horses this year, but I offered to help a friend do some ground work with her 3 year old New Forest X, to keep my hand in and to have some pleasure working with the beasties again. I have suddenly become very aware of having some personal space issues on the ground, even with a little pony. He's a little toady and rude, but he is only 3 and I don't believe there's any badness in him. I have also become quite nervous around larger horses (helping turn out, waiting for vets/farriers etc.). These are horses that I've known for years, I live beside our family yard and I'm very lucky to have good friends around. I posted a topic on here as I was looking to buy another horse, but now I'm wondering if I'm capable? What's changed? Why have I lost the relaxed feeling I used to have around horses? I am actually terrified of the thought of buying a horse I don't know and trying to move forward with it.
Maybe I'm looking too much into this......
P.S I am fully aware of how pathetic this all seems.
My 4 year old homebred mare died last April very suddenly and I am still devastated. Ridiculous as it seems, I struggled to set foot back on the yard, walk past her box etc. Apart from the odd hack out on a friend's ex police horse I haven't been working with horses this year, but I offered to help a friend do some ground work with her 3 year old New Forest X, to keep my hand in and to have some pleasure working with the beasties again. I have suddenly become very aware of having some personal space issues on the ground, even with a little pony. He's a little toady and rude, but he is only 3 and I don't believe there's any badness in him. I have also become quite nervous around larger horses (helping turn out, waiting for vets/farriers etc.). These are horses that I've known for years, I live beside our family yard and I'm very lucky to have good friends around. I posted a topic on here as I was looking to buy another horse, but now I'm wondering if I'm capable? What's changed? Why have I lost the relaxed feeling I used to have around horses? I am actually terrified of the thought of buying a horse I don't know and trying to move forward with it.
Maybe I'm looking too much into this......
P.S I am fully aware of how pathetic this all seems.