acw295
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I'm wrestling with what to do with my just turned 24 year old beloved pony. She's a very young 24, no signs of ageing really but last year she developed EMS and had laminitis. After 5 months in she resumed work and has been doing great, her weight is low (ribby thanks to an expensive course of levothyroxine) and her insulin/glucose results are pretty much perfect. Just low adiponectin which is strange and unexplained as that goes with obesity and she is not in the least fat.
She went slightly pottery again so has had 2 weeks in on bute and bloods retested. All fine. But she looks no better to me off the bute today. We are going to re-do her TRH Stim test for PPID again as last year it was normal but elevated, but if it is not that then I don't know what to do from here. She is miserable in and getting a bit aggressive with me and other horses. It's no life to be stabled so much especially at her age and on a very limited diet so she is often hungry. But when do you decide enough is enough? If she were in pain, or obviously distressed it would be a no-brainer but as she is "ok" I don't know what to think. Before going pottery she was out for 5hrs muzzled and ridden lightly 4-5 times a week and I felt her quality of life was reasonable.
I feel an extra pressure as we are struggling a bit financially as we have a toddler and costs of everything are rising (our nursery bill is going up 8% this year plus there's the utilities and NI). She costs me 25% of my take home pay now I am part-time (£600ish a month as I need part livery and she has all sorts of special feed and shavings) and is now uninsured. Although my husband would never say a word, our life will be much easier when she is no longer here. I feel devastated to admit that though, but the honest truth is I can't really afford her now with her health needs and I have so little time. But I love her so very, very much and only want the best for her. Although I say I can't afford her she never goes without and I give up all other luxuries to give her what she needs, so to that extent I can pay, it's just tight. I do feel emotionally exhausted by it all though, with that awful stomach knot every time I go the yard at what I might find.
I knew I'd have this decision one day but I wish it was an easier one to make. What would you do?
She went slightly pottery again so has had 2 weeks in on bute and bloods retested. All fine. But she looks no better to me off the bute today. We are going to re-do her TRH Stim test for PPID again as last year it was normal but elevated, but if it is not that then I don't know what to do from here. She is miserable in and getting a bit aggressive with me and other horses. It's no life to be stabled so much especially at her age and on a very limited diet so she is often hungry. But when do you decide enough is enough? If she were in pain, or obviously distressed it would be a no-brainer but as she is "ok" I don't know what to think. Before going pottery she was out for 5hrs muzzled and ridden lightly 4-5 times a week and I felt her quality of life was reasonable.
I feel an extra pressure as we are struggling a bit financially as we have a toddler and costs of everything are rising (our nursery bill is going up 8% this year plus there's the utilities and NI). She costs me 25% of my take home pay now I am part-time (£600ish a month as I need part livery and she has all sorts of special feed and shavings) and is now uninsured. Although my husband would never say a word, our life will be much easier when she is no longer here. I feel devastated to admit that though, but the honest truth is I can't really afford her now with her health needs and I have so little time. But I love her so very, very much and only want the best for her. Although I say I can't afford her she never goes without and I give up all other luxuries to give her what she needs, so to that extent I can pay, it's just tight. I do feel emotionally exhausted by it all though, with that awful stomach knot every time I go the yard at what I might find.
I knew I'd have this decision one day but I wish it was an easier one to make. What would you do?