My beloved Tocha is being put to sleep tomorrow

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We can't get her comfortable and I can't keep seeing her in pain

I know I'm doing the right thing but it hurts so much. She owes me nothing, she's done so much for me. I couldn't have found a better pony. Since the day I met her, when she fell asleep with her head on my lap, she's given me a reason to get on with life after my accident, to leave the house on the days when I'm fed up or p*ssed off with the world.

She's had a good 14 months with me. She's had fun, she's been out and seen a bit of life, she's been happy, and she's had lots of love.
I'm going to miss her tantrums, her cheekiness, her larger than life personality; the faces she pulls when you scratch her, the hours we've spent grooming each other.

I keep getting told how brave I'm being but I don't feel very brave at the minute

My fluffy little minx....

 

[Colleen_Miss_Tom]

((((huge hugs)))))

Col xx

 

[Coffee_Bean]

I am so so sorry to hear that

Can only imagine how you must feel, massive hugs, you've done everything you could x

 

[AmyMay]

Just heartbreaking. I'm so sorry, and will be thinking of you (((((( )))))))

 

[Slinkyunicorn]

OMG brightsyde I am so sorry to hear this. You must be absolutely devastated.

Thought sre with you - big hugs

 

[horseylass]

loads and loads of (((((hugs)))))) and (((((squeezes)))))

 

[Chico Mio]

I'm so sorry

((((((((((((((( )))))))))))))

 

[Horseyscot]

So sorry to hear this, huge ((hugs)) for you and Tocha xxx

 

[Ravenwood]

How awful for you Brightsyde - I am so sorry.

I always followed your pictures.

Hugs xx

 

[Archangel]

How heartbreaking, will think of you both tomorrow.

 

[Spot_the_Risk]

Ah Brightsyde, she looks a sweet pony and I'm so sorry that you've had to make this decision, hugs for you.

 

[Sarah Sum1]

Huge ((( HUGS))) you are being brave and doing the right thing by your pony. That is the biggest show of love ever.

 

[CBAnglo]

I was so sorry to hear this news I know how much you have been through and have done absolutely everything you could and then some.

She definitely has a huge personality in a little body and she is being taken too early, only aged 2.

I hope you have some lovely memories from these last few days together. Huge hugs for tomorrow you can always reach me if you want to.

 

[rara007]

So sorry for you

 

[xXGemblesXx]

I am so so sorry

But I'm sure your doing whats right for your gorgeous girly and that she's had the best possible time with you.

 

[somethingorother]

I'm so so sorry to hear this, she is an absolutely beautiful girl and sounds like a wonderful character to have around. You have done a wonderful job with her, you should be so proud of both of you. Sending you lots of hugs, and vibes to give you strength tomorrow. And you are brave, you're doing the bravest thing xx

 

[tabithakat64]

I'm so very sorry

you must be heartbroken (hugs).

 

[Mike007]

So hard. You,re doing the right thing by a friend,but it still hurts so much. I will be thinking of you both .

 

[Geraldine]

((((((HUGS)))))) So sorry to hear this, you have been very brave making a very difficult decision.

My thoughts are with you both.
xx

 

[NeedNewHorse]

I am so sorry... I cannot imagine what you are going through. I wish you all the best.xx

 

[lucythomas]

bigs hugs for you. You are brave , you're making the final decision for your beloved beastie which you know is the right one. That takes great courage & strength. To know when the time is right & take action. Think of all the times she made you smile & all the times she made you cross & enjoy your memories of her. You will give her the peace she deserves & she will always love you. xxx

 

[tasteofchristmaschaos]

Well done for making a brave decision.
If you don't mind me asking - what is wrong with her?

 

[deecee]

I am so sorry to hear this, its such a hard thing to do loads of hugs coming your way ((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))

 

[pookie]

Absolutely heartbreaking

You're being very brave, even if you don't feel like it.

Big ((((hugs)))) hun

 

[Slinkyunicorn]

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If you don't mind me asking - what is wrong with her?

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It is some king of degenerative joint condition - she is only 2.

 

[Louby]

So so sorry, you are being brave and putting your lovely horse first. Big hugs xxx

 

[Enfys]

Oh that is absolutely crappy news. I am so very, very sorry to read this.

Big Hugs.

 

[mrsew]

Dearest Brightsyde you are so very brave but most of all considerate to your lovely girl Tocha. I can not imagine what you must be going through but I'm sending you lots of love & hugs xxxxxxxxxx

 

[saddlesore]

Poor Tocha.

Huge hugs to you, she's been very lucky to have you xx

 

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Thank you everyone.
tasteofchaos - lots! She has osteoarthritis in both hocks, soft tissue damage to her stifles as a result of the hock damage, and an undiagnosed forelimb lameness that is most likely shoulder related.
The most recent vet to see her thinks her shoulder sockets are very shallow (I'm trying to source xrays of other mini's shoulders to compare but not getting very far!) and that the small tarsal bones in her hocks are slightly deformed, in his opinion he thinks that she may have been a premature foal, and that her hocks were not fully formed before weightbearing.
She's 2 1/2, and has gone downhill quite rapidly in the space of 8/9 weeks, with one problem after another