tinker512
Well-Known Member
Last week I found out that my Ellie, my rock had died. I just want to do this goodbye to remember all the good times.
Ellie
Jesus I must have been about 7/8 when I first saw you in the field, me being dead excited because there was a new horse.And god you where stunning.You were so stubborn, you didn't want to know anyone or anything, less human contact the better I think you thought, but some grass soon got you over. From that moment I was in love I think!
Soon we were attached, during the holidays from school, where ever you was I was, where ever I was you was. People were astonished how you could be so moody and bad mannered around other people, you justs didn't want humans about.But yet it was the 8 year old girl who you would follow about.
I remember when we used to 'fall out', but it would never be more than a couple of hours!!I remeber watching as people would try to catch you from the field, you naughty girl you wasn't having any of it, but I knew If I was to 'go' and hide behind a tree you would give in and be caught.
When I was doing my Brownie animal care badge, I had a rota, every wednesday my job was to 'Get Ellie used to other people'...I don't think it ever did work ha ha!!
And then came the day, I was watching you being ridden as usual, when I got asked if I could just leave for a little while...you were being sold and there was people watching. You always had a habit of being a naughty girl when I was watching, I remeber several times you rearing up just to try and get out of work!
I was so devestated, I remeber going into the house and just crying and crying, and praying you would be bad and they would hate you and would stay for ever. But I wasn't stupid, you was the bestest horse ever, they would love you.
Sure enough, the next week that blue horsebox pulled up to collect you.It was so hard to say goodbye, I was in tears, I didn't know what to do. I was 9 or 10 at this point, you was my life, you was my best friend, you was everything, I would run straight down to you ever day after school, and all of a sudden I was supposed to cope with you gone?
It devestated me, havig to say good bye and watch you get into the box. I remeber sitting at my front gate and just sobbing my heart out, I could hear you whinneying from inside the box.
I kind of gave up horses for a bit after that, I didn't want to be around them if it wasn't you.
One weekend I got told you was at a local show with your new owner, so off me, my sister and nan and grandad tottered!I was so excited, I couldn't wait to see you!!Soon as we got there I was zooming around looking for you. i kept on zooming round for the next couple of hours, but finally gave up, you wasn't there.I thought that was it, I would never see you again.
Not sure how I am supposed to put 10 years just in one post, so I'll cut it shorter
I would have been around 11 or 12 at the time when I got told that another one of the horses had been sold, but not to worry, another horse had come.
I still got upset that Bruce had been sold, but still went to see the new one anyway.
Nothing had prepared me for what was next.It was you!!It was actually you stood in that stable.I couldn't talk or anything, tear where just flooding out. I couldn't believe it was actually YOU!And god you were even more stunning.And from that time I vowed never to loose you again, no matter what.
You where so happy now, you were like a different horse, you were no longer in ridden work, and was bought back to be a mummy!!
And what a good mum you where!3 stunning foals who I am so lucky to have had a part in it all.
first foal
Final foal
I don't really know what part of the story to tell....you had 3 foals and then you were just put to grass as the stallion used had died. your first 2 foals where sold 2006, and the colt was kept at the stud there.
So it was just you and the 2 ponies left. A life of luxury I guess.
At this point I was just finishing A-Levels,sorting uni out and didn't get a lot of time to see you, Im sorry Ellie!I still thought about you everyday, and saw you when I could
But this shocked me. I was so worryed about you, how could you be that skinny. Grass was poor and you where obviously not getting any extra feed.
I only had a month before I started uni, and did what I could. Feed and haylage was stocked up and a month later you was looking better
But then I couldn't do anything,I started uni and you got worse, at the rare times I got to see you. It was clear nobody was bothering with you, you where just in a muddy field.
I tried my best Ellie I did, I rang the ILPH who said you was in fine body condition.You wasn't!!
The last few times I saw you I couldn't help but cry, cry for you.
All I could see was bones in front of me.It was sickening and I daren't look at the last pictures I have at you.
But you would still gallop over whinneying every time I came to see you, just like 10 years ago when we were kids.You would still stand there and whinney when I was walking away
Your dead now, 3 months after the ILPH said you were fine, your dead
Your gone. The words 'Ellie died'...they just aren't supposed to be in same sentence.
I was supposed to buy you, look after you, live a life of luxury and die with me, not the way you did.I wish I was with you. I wish I could have done more.I wish I could just touch you one more time.
When she got sold all them years ago, I thought I couldn't cry any more, but silly you you have proved me wrong.
Im sorry I couldn't do no more for you.Your in a better place now Ellie
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Ellie
Jesus I must have been about 7/8 when I first saw you in the field, me being dead excited because there was a new horse.And god you where stunning.You were so stubborn, you didn't want to know anyone or anything, less human contact the better I think you thought, but some grass soon got you over. From that moment I was in love I think!
Soon we were attached, during the holidays from school, where ever you was I was, where ever I was you was. People were astonished how you could be so moody and bad mannered around other people, you justs didn't want humans about.But yet it was the 8 year old girl who you would follow about.
I remember when we used to 'fall out', but it would never be more than a couple of hours!!I remeber watching as people would try to catch you from the field, you naughty girl you wasn't having any of it, but I knew If I was to 'go' and hide behind a tree you would give in and be caught.
When I was doing my Brownie animal care badge, I had a rota, every wednesday my job was to 'Get Ellie used to other people'...I don't think it ever did work ha ha!!
And then came the day, I was watching you being ridden as usual, when I got asked if I could just leave for a little while...you were being sold and there was people watching. You always had a habit of being a naughty girl when I was watching, I remeber several times you rearing up just to try and get out of work!
I was so devestated, I remeber going into the house and just crying and crying, and praying you would be bad and they would hate you and would stay for ever. But I wasn't stupid, you was the bestest horse ever, they would love you.
Sure enough, the next week that blue horsebox pulled up to collect you.It was so hard to say goodbye, I was in tears, I didn't know what to do. I was 9 or 10 at this point, you was my life, you was my best friend, you was everything, I would run straight down to you ever day after school, and all of a sudden I was supposed to cope with you gone?
It devestated me, havig to say good bye and watch you get into the box. I remeber sitting at my front gate and just sobbing my heart out, I could hear you whinneying from inside the box.
I kind of gave up horses for a bit after that, I didn't want to be around them if it wasn't you.
One weekend I got told you was at a local show with your new owner, so off me, my sister and nan and grandad tottered!I was so excited, I couldn't wait to see you!!Soon as we got there I was zooming around looking for you. i kept on zooming round for the next couple of hours, but finally gave up, you wasn't there.I thought that was it, I would never see you again.
Not sure how I am supposed to put 10 years just in one post, so I'll cut it shorter
I would have been around 11 or 12 at the time when I got told that another one of the horses had been sold, but not to worry, another horse had come.
I still got upset that Bruce had been sold, but still went to see the new one anyway.
Nothing had prepared me for what was next.It was you!!It was actually you stood in that stable.I couldn't talk or anything, tear where just flooding out. I couldn't believe it was actually YOU!And god you were even more stunning.And from that time I vowed never to loose you again, no matter what.
You where so happy now, you were like a different horse, you were no longer in ridden work, and was bought back to be a mummy!!
And what a good mum you where!3 stunning foals who I am so lucky to have had a part in it all.
first foal
Final foal
I don't really know what part of the story to tell....you had 3 foals and then you were just put to grass as the stallion used had died. your first 2 foals where sold 2006, and the colt was kept at the stud there.
So it was just you and the 2 ponies left. A life of luxury I guess.
At this point I was just finishing A-Levels,sorting uni out and didn't get a lot of time to see you, Im sorry Ellie!I still thought about you everyday, and saw you when I could
But this shocked me. I was so worryed about you, how could you be that skinny. Grass was poor and you where obviously not getting any extra feed.
I only had a month before I started uni, and did what I could. Feed and haylage was stocked up and a month later you was looking better
But then I couldn't do anything,I started uni and you got worse, at the rare times I got to see you. It was clear nobody was bothering with you, you where just in a muddy field.
I tried my best Ellie I did, I rang the ILPH who said you was in fine body condition.You wasn't!!
The last few times I saw you I couldn't help but cry, cry for you.
All I could see was bones in front of me.It was sickening and I daren't look at the last pictures I have at you.
But you would still gallop over whinneying every time I came to see you, just like 10 years ago when we were kids.You would still stand there and whinney when I was walking away
Your dead now, 3 months after the ILPH said you were fine, your dead
Your gone. The words 'Ellie died'...they just aren't supposed to be in same sentence.
I was supposed to buy you, look after you, live a life of luxury and die with me, not the way you did.I wish I was with you. I wish I could have done more.I wish I could just touch you one more time.
When she got sold all them years ago, I thought I couldn't cry any more, but silly you you have proved me wrong.
Im sorry I couldn't do no more for you.Your in a better place now Ellie
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