My heart is breaking..vibes please

Stood with mares, waiting, Jessie getting collicky and vet going to be qnother good 40mins..i am numb.to answer wagtails question, mares accidents..not me.thank you all for your lovely messages..the poem especially helped xxx

I am so very sorry . . . I can see every crack of your broken heart in this post . . . I am sure there is nothing I can say that will make you feel any better, but please know that you and your beautiful girls are in MY heart. Please don't be alone tonight . . . make sure you have kind, caring people around you and please look after yourself.

Much love x

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I have just heard from the OP and it all went well, very peaceful, both mares were relaxed and went quietly, she now with her OH who will be supporting her, although from the sound of things he found it just as difficult if not more so.
 
Every horse deserves to be pain free never hungry and always loved and your horses have had that all the time they have been with you .They also deserve a dignified and caring end with someone they love and who loves them by their side .
You have given this to your girls the greatest last gift you can give.
God bless you for this
this poem brought me comfort when I lost my mare 2 years ago.

They say that memories are golden,
and that probably is true,
but I never wanted memories;
I only wanted you.
A million times I've needed you,
a million times I've cried.
If love alone could save you,
you never would have died.
In life I loved you deeply,
in death I love you still.
In my heart you leave a space
that nothing will ever fill.
If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane,
I could walk the path to heaven
and bring you back again.
Our family chain’s now broken,
and nothing seems the same.
but as God calls us one by one,
the chain will link again.
 
Glad to hear it went well, I think apprehension about things not going to plan can play a large part in situations like this, and in one sense it can be a relief when it is all over, of course that doesn't detract from the painful loss. I am sure that shock also plays a huge part too, and I hope the OP and her OH can take time to recover and eventually reflect on happier times with her horses. Awful time for them :(
 
I have just heard from the OP and it all went well, very peaceful, both mares were relaxed and went quietly, she now with her OH who will be supporting her, although from the sound of things he found it just as difficult if not more so.

Thank you for posting this. I am sure we all hoped that it had been peaceful and I hope that the OP can take comfort from this in times to come. My thoughts are with her.
 
So glad it was peaceful. Have been thinking about you and your girls today. Hoping that you and your husband are ok and will find comfort in that they knew how much they were loved.
 
Oh, SaharaS, I am so very sorry to see this. Cannot imagine the heartbreak of losing your two darlings. At least, as you say, they are still together and nothing more can hurt them. Hugs to you and your OH x x x
 
How awful for you, I really don't know what to say as I'm sure any words are inadequate in a situation such as this. Our horses give us so much pleasure but inevitibly if they remain with us till old age the final parting is unbelievibly painful. I'm sure you have happy memories of them both and I hope in time you will be able to look back and smile.

Worded better then I could, so so sorry it is totally heart breaking when you have to say bye. Been there and its the most differcult thing iv ever done
 
Only just seen this. So sorry for your loss, hugs to both you and your OH.

I hope that in time you will find some comfort that you gave hem a wonderful home and a Neal act of kindness. Be kind to yourselves.
 
So sorry to read this, but glad for you that it went peacefully. You are grieving now and so you should. In time you will start to remember the good times. x
 
I don't know you, or your girls, but I have just sat and read all these lovely messages - and I'm bawling my eyes out as I write this, so goodness only knows how hard this is for you! I have 2 mares who adore each other and I'm dreading that permanent separation as there is 7 years between them in age.
The only thing I can think that may offer some comfort is that at least in going together, you haven't had to watch one struggle with being left behind while grieving for the other. They'll run carefree together now.
It will hurt a lot and for a good while yet, but it will get easier. Surround yourself with as much comfort as you can and allow yourself plenty of time to recover.
(((*Hugs!*))) <3 x
 
Thinking of you both at such a sad time. x

Don't cry for the horses
Look up into heaven,
You'll see them above,
The horses we lost,
The horses we loved.

Manes and tails flowing,
As they gallop through time,
They were never yours,
They were never mine.

Don't cry for the horses,
They'll be back some day,
When our time is gone,
They will show us the way,
Do you hear that soft nicker?
Close to your ear?
Don't cry for the horses,
Love the ones that are here.

Don't cry for the horses,
Now in Gods hands,
As they dance and they prance,
To a heavenly band,
They were ours as a gift,
But never to keep,
As they close their eyes,
Forever to sleep,
Their spirits unbound,
On silver wings they fly,
A million beautiful horses,
Against the blue sky.
 
Thank you to everyone who has left such lovely poems & comments, a couple I read to Jessie & Blossom thru my tears. You will never know how much you have helped..& thank you to everyone who helped over the last few weeks, especially Be Positive who kindly did my two remaining boys yesterday evening. The day itself started with the most horrific rain & wind but I stayed outside with them throughout, as the time got nearer it gradually brightened enough that I was able to take their rugs off & let them warm up with the sun on their backs. They had free run over the 60acre lush grass, but stayed by me & James all the time..when the time came we had to lead them a little way up the lane & along another field, both were unsure but marched on trusting us & determined, Blossom struggled at home,but found a second strength from somewhere, she always gave that little bit extra & Jessie was pulling like she did when I led her up at the races..also having a good spook & dance with ears pricked at the haylage stack..they both suddenly stood calm & relaxed together when we got to their spot..it was all very peaceful & we both stood holding hands & hugging the mares & talking to them for the first sedative then said our goodbyes..we took the dog for a walk along the river & the sun was beaming thru the clouds. I could not have coped without my OH who has been more than my rock over the last weeks,tho at the last moments & yesterday I felt I had to stay strong for him too as we both kept setting each other off, which equally brought smiles. Small disaster after tho, later yesterday afternoon when they had to unexpectedly move once more as the field was pretty much solid rock under shallow topsoil, but luckily the farmer was very kind and has found them somewhere possibly even better with perfect sunset views and on the right evenings you can even see as far as Hinkley Point & the Bristol Chanel...others, just of Glastonbury Tor on the horizon... I hope to be strong enough to go and say goodnight for many more sunsets with beautiful views..Jessie always loved watching the cows go in for milking, or just watching out across the fields, wherever we have lived & Blossom always liked to go & watch with her too...
 
Gulp. Reading with tears in my eyes. You are clearly a devoted and caring owner, who has done the right and best thing for your horses, but I know how heartbroken you must be feeling right now. Thinking of you and I hope you're finding comfort in all these messages, and the knowledge that you did the absolute best for your horses - be proud of yourself for that. xx
 
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