Identityincrisis
Well-Known Member
Sorry this is a major woe is me post!
My 7yr old Anglo was diagnosed with Navicular in April this year, it was a massive blow. He has been a very difficult horse with many issues but I had hoped this would be our year! He had been on and off lame for approx 12 months previous to the diagnosis, after a trailer accident.
I have had him 4 1/2 years now and never really been able to consistently get going with him due to my injuries (caused by him!) and his injuries.
He has been barefoot all his life, i'm very pro barefoot, have a highly respected trimmer and do all i'm supposed to do. Following his diagnosis I have religiously walked him in hand morning and night to help improve his feet, and they have improved significantly and he has been sound since diagnosis but today, I'm sure (can't be certain as no one else to trot him while I watch) that he is lame :'( I find it so disheartening. He is fed up, I am fed up of all the in hand walking. He is difficult to lead in hand which means it isn't enjoyable bonding time.
I find myself resenting him, my old boy was retired 3 years before he died, I bought a youngster with high hopes of enjoying riding him but I've barely had a year of riding (that was the backing process) We are in Winter and I just dread it as I would happily give it up today if I could.
I have told myself he has until April (12months post diagnosis) to 'come right' and stand up to work (it scares the life out of me that he won't!)
I have loved this horse, I believe we could be great but this Navicular and uncertainty is killing me
Please be kind, I know I sound hard and uncaring, i'm not, I'm just struggling
My 7yr old Anglo was diagnosed with Navicular in April this year, it was a massive blow. He has been a very difficult horse with many issues but I had hoped this would be our year! He had been on and off lame for approx 12 months previous to the diagnosis, after a trailer accident.
I have had him 4 1/2 years now and never really been able to consistently get going with him due to my injuries (caused by him!) and his injuries.
He has been barefoot all his life, i'm very pro barefoot, have a highly respected trimmer and do all i'm supposed to do. Following his diagnosis I have religiously walked him in hand morning and night to help improve his feet, and they have improved significantly and he has been sound since diagnosis but today, I'm sure (can't be certain as no one else to trot him while I watch) that he is lame :'( I find it so disheartening. He is fed up, I am fed up of all the in hand walking. He is difficult to lead in hand which means it isn't enjoyable bonding time.
I find myself resenting him, my old boy was retired 3 years before he died, I bought a youngster with high hopes of enjoying riding him but I've barely had a year of riding (that was the backing process) We are in Winter and I just dread it as I would happily give it up today if I could.
I have told myself he has until April (12months post diagnosis) to 'come right' and stand up to work (it scares the life out of me that he won't!)
I have loved this horse, I believe we could be great but this Navicular and uncertainty is killing me
Please be kind, I know I sound hard and uncaring, i'm not, I'm just struggling