Oh darling cry. Just cry. You loved them. So just cry. Quietly in time your tears will stop (ok you have odd tears). You will look back and smile ( odd tears). But tears are good. A sign of love. Cry your tears until that little smile starts appearing xx
So sorry - it really hurts! My daughter lost her lovely old boy on Christmas day, and then her new one last week. To say she's in bits is an understatement - new one qualified for HOYS and she was super excited for the future with him. I have no idea how anyone can get through the pain of losing their best friend, all I can suggest is that you make sure you look after yourself and accept all the support that your friends give you.