Time to say goodbye, making the right decision

sorry you are going through this especially with your own recent health problem, dont feel guilty....... i would try putting him at your friends place to give yourself time to come to terms with a decision.. .... then just focus on what his quality of life will be and pretend (in your head) that you have won the lottery so money is no object...then decide......it sounds like no amount of money will cure him so PTS is likely to be the best option for him.....HUGS!!!!!!
 
I've had another bad night with him. The vet has been up tonight and basically said his larynx has collapsed and he is struggling to breath. He's had pain relief and I've left him with a belly full of carrots and happily munching on his hayledge.

He's going to Leahurst tomorrow to be PTS. I want him to go while he still has a twinkle in his eye and his goregous fluffy ears forward and alert. The vet said to me that he is a sick pony on the inside but looks fabulous on the outside - I would much rather him go when he's still looking and presenting as well. I'd never forgive myself if a few weeks down the line he stopped eating or couldn't get up. He's far too precious to have him suffer.

I always knew since his diagnosis 18 months ago that we were living on borrowed time, so we've made the most of it and had a fabulous last summer. I will miss my little friend so much, I cannot even believe tomorrow is the last time I will see him.

I have decided to take him to Leahurst and donate his body to the vet who worked tirelessly on a treatment plan for him. She's an expert in respiratory medicine and I've asked her if she'd like his body and lungs to enable further research, to see if she can help others like him. I take comfort in the fact that maybe in the future she will be able to help another boy like mine, and he will carry on giving after he has passed on.

Tomorrow will be the worst day of my life to date, and I know I'll never get over it. I just know it's the right thing to do, I am so heartbroken.
 
I am so sorry, these are the hardest times to be a horse owner.

Poor boy, but he is very fortunate to be kept comfortable and have the kindest decision made for him by a loving owner.

I'm thinking of you, Cheshire Chestnut and sincerely hope the New Year brings you happier days. x
 
Thinking of you today. He took the decision out of your hands. Go easy on yourself, you did everything you could do.
 
Cheshire Chestnut said:
I've had another bad night with him. The vet has been up tonight and basically said his larynx has collapsed and he is struggling to breath. He's had pain relief and I've left him with a belly full of carrots and happily munching on his hayledge.

He's going to Leahurst tomorrow to be PTS. I want him to go while he still has a twinkle in his eye and his goregous fluffy ears forward and alert. The vet said to me that he is a sick pony on the inside but looks fabulous on the outside - I would much rather him go when he's still looking and presenting as well. I'd never forgive myself if a few weeks down the line he stopped eating or couldn't get up. He's far too precious to have him suffer.

I always knew since his diagnosis 18 months ago that we were living on borrowed time, so we've made the most of it and had a fabulous last summer. I will miss my little friend so much, I cannot even believe tomorrow is the last time I will see him.

I have decided to take him to Leahurst and donate his body to the vet who worked tirelessly on a treatment plan for him. She's an expert in respiratory medicine and I've asked her if she'd like his body and lungs to enable further research, to see if she can help others like him. I take comfort in the fact that maybe in the future she will be able to help another boy like mine, and he will carry on giving after he has passed on.

Tomorrow will be the worst day of my life to date, and I know I'll never get over it. I just know it's the right thing to do, I am so heartbroken.
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I am so, so sorry. You are doing the very best thing. There is nothing else you could do, at least you will know that. There will be no what ifs. It's the best way for it to have happened. You will be heartbroken but you will slowly heal but never forget him x
 
You really have done your very best for him and this is the only decision you can make. Thinking of you on this most difficult of days. You've done the boy proud, never forget that! Xx
 
What a sad end to the story, but not very surprising I expect. When you have run out of weapons to fight with, you must turn and face the end and put all your fight into a good and painless death. Well done for choosing to donate his body so that others may benefit in the future - that is his legacy.
 
I've followed your story and just wanted to say that in time when the pain of loss is not so raw you can be at peace to know that you've done all that you could to help your boy, including this last and most important act of compassion. Thoughts are with you!
 
Thank you everyone. I've been a complete idiot and drank a full bottle of wine to myself. Not going to work tomorrow, spending the day chilling and catching up on the sleep I've lost over the last 3 weeks.

I had to laugh, he came off the wagon at the vets and dragged my friend and the vet across the carpark- a little ***** to the end! He went to sleep with a belly full of apples and a mouth full of grass. RIP Geezer, I love you and you owe me nothing- thank you for the memories and the unconditional love. I will think of you every day xxxxx
 
Cheshire Chestnut said:
Thank you everyone. I've been a complete idiot and drank a full bottle of wine to myself. Not going to work tomorrow, spending the day chilling and catching up on the sleep I've lost over the last 3 weeks.

I had to laugh, he came off the wagon at the vets and dragged my friend and the vet across the carpark- a little ***** to the end! He went to sleep with a belly full of apples and a mouth full of grass. RIP Geezer, I love you and you owe me nothing- thank you for the memories and the unconditional love. I will think of you every day xxxxx
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Please take some comfort in knowing that you have done the right thing and shown great care and courage for your boy, it sounds like nobody could've loved him or looked after him anymore than you have done. It's great that he went eating and evidently full of life! So please hold your head high, treasure the good memories and know that you have been very brave.

I hope that you are able to find some peace and some rest now after what has been such a stressful time. It's true that you will never forget him but I'm sure he's looking down on you with love and gratitude for having treated him so beautifully. Sending a big hug and a lot of respect! x
 
what a shame, but at least the decision was virtually made for you , he is comfortable now and you must look after yourself and be happy that you made the right decision for him and he would have only known he was having extra treats.....lots of hugs to you...
 
Cheshire Chestnut said:
Thank you everyone. I've been a complete idiot and drank a full bottle of wine to myself. Not going to work tomorrow, spending the day chilling and catching up on the sleep I've lost over the last 3 weeks.

I had to laugh, he came off the wagon at the vets and dragged my friend and the vet across the carpark- a little ***** to the end! He went to sleep with a belly full of apples and a mouth full of grass. RIP Geezer, I love you and you owe me nothing- thank you for the memories and the unconditional love. I will think of you every day xxxxx
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Oh bless you. What better end could any horse want?
 
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