Mrsmurphy
New User
Hello all, as title really, I have lost all confidence in riding, and its now affecting my handling too
Im in my late 30's, 4 kids, 3 1/2 horses (pony), and work full time. I have had a few painful falls within a 2 yr period, but nothing horrific. I am embarrassed and devastated that it has now come to the fact I am hiding under another name, attemptiing to get help from others, when i should be enjoying my free time and riding!
Last week, dd nagged me to jump her mare, it couldnt have been higher than 1ft9 - she video'd it.... I am mortified at what i have become. I was so scared of falling that I was completely hunched over, the poor mare only went over because she is so good, nothing to do with me sitting there like a sack of spuds.
Ive tried lessons, at first i thought they helped, then I struggled to get school horse into canter, and fell apart (imagine the horses surprise to have a sobbing, wet mess on its back).
Any advice would be gratefully received, I can see this sliding into something more sinister, as i am currently avoiding going up as ppl keep asking when I am riding!
Im in my late 30's, 4 kids, 3 1/2 horses (pony), and work full time. I have had a few painful falls within a 2 yr period, but nothing horrific. I am embarrassed and devastated that it has now come to the fact I am hiding under another name, attemptiing to get help from others, when i should be enjoying my free time and riding!
Last week, dd nagged me to jump her mare, it couldnt have been higher than 1ft9 - she video'd it.... I am mortified at what i have become. I was so scared of falling that I was completely hunched over, the poor mare only went over because she is so good, nothing to do with me sitting there like a sack of spuds.
Ive tried lessons, at first i thought they helped, then I struggled to get school horse into canter, and fell apart (imagine the horses surprise to have a sobbing, wet mess on its back).
Any advice would be gratefully received, I can see this sliding into something more sinister, as i am currently avoiding going up as ppl keep asking when I am riding!