oh god reading this and thinking this is me, just put similar post up!! Had a great horse for 10 years did everything with him. Then was given a cob who was 12 and anxious, but I cracked on but he was nervous out hacking and never reached that confident stage with him before he went wrong at 15. Now got a welsh d, very green (i know i know!!!) and not feeling it with him atm. Supposed to be getting on this afternoon with the instructor already feeling a bit sick!!!