Boggle- USA bound!

[Titchy Pony]

I think you need to not look at it as trying to get close to what you felt with Bog, but as trying to build/feel something new.
I will never get back what I had with my Hairy Champion, but then again, I'm no longer the crazy teenager that rode him. My Little Madam is brilliant in a different way and strangely enough I found myself missing her the other day. She is only across my drive way in her stable, but I can't ride her until her foal is born and weaned and I just really felt like some carefree exploring, which I can't do with my current ride.
As a friend once put it, though she was talking about human relations, sometimes you want/need a fireworks display and at other times you realise a good harth fire is what you want now. And I'm sure there are infinite variations between the two.
It is also strange, other people's perception of you as a rider. I ride at a riding school and have never been a one horse rider though I've always had my own/main ride. Depending when people start at the riding school, I get comments along the lines of "it's really strange to see you on a horse" or "it really strange to see you on a pony". The latter is weird to me, because I consider myself a pony rider, I own a pony, I just happen to be riding a 17'2 at the minute.

 

[Peglo]

Wish there was something I could say to make things better M but it just sucks. It’s ok to have down times about it and do whatever you need to to get through. If that’s be sad and mad about it then do that. If it’s to have a wee cry and crack on then that’s ok too.

We’re here if and when you need us even if it’s to be sad and reminisce.

Your story on Insta with the cactus forest was beautiful btw.

 

[Michen]

Thanks. Sorry guys, that was a bad day that’s morphed into a bad morning and I don’t even know why. The jump lesson really triggered my Bog grief which is bizarre as I have been riding Beau even when Bog was retired. And I didn’t care about jumping or not jumping Bog just him himself.

I was elated and buzzy at the end of it and then wooooosh a crying sobbing mess for the rest of the day and have woken up like that too- the tears will not stop pouring down my face FGS

I guess it was dumb to expect I’d ride off into the Arizona sunset with Atlas and be just fine, haha. Thank you guys for your comments I know most of you have been exactly where I am now. I mean I’ve been where I am now but I guess I forgot.

Phew. Hopefully I’ll be less soggy shortly

 

[Surbie]

I haven't been where you are with a horse yet, (and fingers crossed not for years!) but from losing people that matter to me I've learned you have to let yourself have time to grieve. And it comes back at odd times and in odd places.

I hope your day is getting better. x

 

[Equi]

Grief comes in waves and tsunamis sometimes. Sending love M