Boggle- USA bound!

Christ mate how the hell?!
Please, please, please do not beat yourself up. I have never met anyone else who looks after their horses to the standard you do. I can’t believe this is happening to you again, life can be so bloody cruel.
 
Praying that he’s just had a funny slip / trip and painfully tweaked something and that he’ll improve massively with some rest.
I had a mare come in from the field close to non weight bearing (on a bank holiday of course!). Called the vet who couldn’t find anything notable. Within a couple of hours she was pretty much fine. I think she must have pulled a muscle moments before I brought her in.
Look after yourself. We all know you’ll make the right decisions 🫂
 
Oh Michen I’m so sorry! How bl**dy unfair. I hope he makes a quick recovery for you, you really don’t deserve this stress but trust your decision making. You’ll do the best for both of you. Take care of yourself
 
Michen said:
I think I’m going to give him a week and if he’s not significantly improving I will PTS.

I’m not going down this EPM s*** hole if it is that, it doesn’t have a good success rate and it’s hugely expensive to treat.

I’m not doing the whole is it the neck, X ray, not really have clear answers because it’s not a CT thing either.

I just won’t. I absolutely refuse to go down this route with another horse least of all one that I’ve had for a matter of months.

What kind of sick joke is this to have this happen again, at least the vets job was easy she didn’t have to explain anything to me because I already know.

I’m just done. And poor, poor Atlas.

Jokes on me for not insuring him once again.. lol. Clearly learned from my mistakes though this isn’t even a money factored decision it’s a I CANNOT do this again. Mentally.
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Sometimes life can be so unbelievably unfair. Almost as if someone is saying, well she got through that lot, let's see what more she can handle, eh? Your plan is a good one. You shouldn't be having to make that plan.

I'm so sorry, M.
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I'm so sorry, I was just reading updates from a few entries and bam. I hope it is a bruise or something that gets better soon.

Chin up, you are stronger than this, even if you don't feel it right now.
 
Bum bum bum bum bum (pity that the forum doesn’t allow proper swearing). There are many, many, many other people the universe should be picking on rather than you. Fingers crossed for some kind of miracle xxxxx (but can totally understand why you’re putting a time limit on things)
 
Oh no! Poor you and poor Atlas :(

I'm so sorry. Life is so cruel sometimes.
Keeping everything crossed it's just a tweak and he comes round. And if he doesn't you've a sensible plan.
 
I am with you all the way on your plan - it is necessary for both of you. But ............just be absolutely sure (as I am sure you will be) that your vet has made the correct diagnosis. As someone has already said, it could just be a silly in the field and, as a young horse, he has probably not had to confront much pain or discomfort in his body before and may not know how to deal with it. Deep breaths, one step at a time and know that we are all with you.
 
No words but sending every hope that this is minor and easily resolved. Your plan for review in a week is completely sensible. FFS.
 
Sending good vibes across the waves. It would be too cruel for it to be the same thing happening again. Hopefully it’s just a tweak and he’ll be back to normal again but I know that won’t ease the anxiety on your part. I’m so sorry M ❤️
 
Poor, poor Atlas. He is such a truly lovely young horse and he doesn’t deserve this. I want to be there for him but I also think I’m going to have to slightly remove myself from the situation to retain any sanity or clear logical thinking. At least he’s at a great barn with very experienced owners who I know can administer meds etc. God is that terrible? I’m thinking I’m going to go see him today (I need to drive around Arizona to track down some meds anyway) and then just leave him in their care for a week.

He was so bright and cheeky and being completely hilarious yesterday, you’d never have thought there was anything wrong with him.

Really, truly messed up.
 
Michen said:
Poor, poor Atlas. He is such a truly lovely young horse and he doesn’t deserve this. I want to be there for him but I also think I’m going to have to slightly remove myself from the situation to retain any sanity or clear logical thinking. At least he’s at a great barn with very experienced owners who I know can administer meds etc. God is that terrible? I’m thinking I’m going to go see him today (I need to drive around Arizona to track down some meds anyway) and then just leave him in their care for a week.

He was so bright and cheeky and being completely hilarious yesterday, you’d never have thought there was anything wrong with him.

Really, truly messed up.
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No, not terrible at all. The horse needs his needs to be met, and you're doing that by providing the right environment and experts.

Often, our human instinct to be there for them emotionally is just that - human. I often think it's something we do more for ourselves than them. I'd think it was completely reasonable, even responsible, to step back if your emotions are quite understandably going to be all over the place. I'd do exactly as you are considering myself.
 
Michen said:
Poor, poor Atlas. He is such a truly lovely young horse and he doesn’t deserve this. I want to be there for him but I also think I’m going to have to slightly remove myself from the situation to retain any sanity or clear logical thinking. At least he’s at a great barn with very experienced owners who I know can administer meds etc. God is that terrible? I’m thinking I’m going to go see him today (I need to drive around Arizona to track down some meds anyway) and then just leave him in their care for a week.

He was so bright and cheeky and being completely hilarious yesterday, you’d never have thought there was anything wrong with him.

Really, truly messed up.
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I'd 100% do this in your position.

Not only from a preserving your sanity perspective, but also they will be able to be far more objective and support you in a plan.

Sending positive vibes. So pants you're going through this 💜
 
Absolutely no shame in some distance M. When my ginger youngster seemed to be irretrievably broken at 2 I sent him to the best rehab facility I could and then gave myself the necessary space to ensure I could make objective decisions not clouded by emotion. Having already lost one as a 5yo it was hard not to draw parallels or wonder why the heck I was living through this hell a second time. Life is sometimes just truly blimming unfair.

If it offers some comfort, that 2yo is now rising 7 and has defied all odds.
 
Thank you. I spent a lot of time vomiting yesterday 😞 The smell of the DMSO and the memories of what it brings back re Boggle… urgh.

No more tears today, I will go get everything sorted and drop it all off and then I’m continuing life as normal until I know more.

My poor mum just arrived from the UK, she was in the car waiting when I went to get him from the pasture so she could meet him. I think she’s regretting the day she ever relented when I begged for riding lessons age 7, last night we both just cried and cried because I guess as a mother, it’s so distressing to see your child (however grown up) in such a state- yet again.
 
Michen said:
Poor, poor Atlas. He is such a truly lovely young horse and he doesn’t deserve this. I want to be there for him but I also think I’m going to have to slightly remove myself from the situation to retain any sanity or clear logical thinking. At least he’s at a great barn with very experienced owners who I know can administer meds etc. God is that terrible? I’m thinking I’m going to go see him today (I need to drive around Arizona to track down some meds anyway) and then just leave him in their care for a week.

He was so bright and cheeky and being completely hilarious yesterday, you’d never have thought there was anything wrong with him.

Really, truly messed up.
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I think for a lot of reasons slightly removing yourself is a good idea. Your mental health for starters, but also the barn staff can assess him pragmatically and feed back to you. It's very, very hard to be a pragmatic owner when our horses are ill at the best of times let alone when dealing with recent trauma.

I'm still hoping for a tweak which will recover quickly xx
 
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