BeckyD
Well-Known Member
I really don't want to do it. I know it must hurt him. But I just can't seem to stop myself. Ron only bucks when he's been in for a while (no turnout due to cr*p weather, fields pretty flooded) and is then startled i.e. a spook or another horse or something. He no longer seems to do the bronc/spin/bolt that he used to, he now just does a buck and small spin, or, best of all, a buck in a straight line.
But I can't seem to stop myself from over-reacting completely. When he was doing the full-on twisting broncs (when he was in pain + on box rest for 6 months) I grabbed his head a) to try to get his head back up from between his knees and b) to stop me falling off (shameful I know). Now it's become my automatic response. Is there any mental imagery or anything I can try to stop myself? I feel mortified that I keep doing it.
But I can't seem to stop myself from over-reacting completely. When he was doing the full-on twisting broncs (when he was in pain + on box rest for 6 months) I grabbed his head a) to try to get his head back up from between his knees and b) to stop me falling off (shameful I know). Now it's become my automatic response. Is there any mental imagery or anything I can try to stop myself? I feel mortified that I keep doing it.