zeuscleoharmony
Well-Known Member
Archie is my pride and joy. He is a fabulous happy hacker though I suspect in the right hands he could do so much more.
I am in turmoil. Whilst I adore and love him with all my heart, since starting my new job it has become evident I just cannot give him the time he deserves and to be very honest, since my accident, have lost my confidence to ride (I do ride but am not enjoying like I did).
I am seriously thinking about putting him on loan for the forseeable future to address two things - one to give him some well deserved attention and two - to give myself a break from beating myself up and feeling so guilty about everything. I have had a really bad headache and feel really sick and I think it is because I am worrying. I think of him standing in his field not being ridden and then think about riding but then all the butterflies start.
I have someone coming tomorrow to try him and that would mean him going out on loan and moving away. I am not sure thats what I truly want but then think its his happiness that is important, not mine.
If anyone is reading this that is in close vicinity to Petersfield and would ride out with me or would like to ride him to help me and him, please get in touch.
I just don't know what to do for the best.
I am in turmoil. Whilst I adore and love him with all my heart, since starting my new job it has become evident I just cannot give him the time he deserves and to be very honest, since my accident, have lost my confidence to ride (I do ride but am not enjoying like I did).
I am seriously thinking about putting him on loan for the forseeable future to address two things - one to give him some well deserved attention and two - to give myself a break from beating myself up and feeling so guilty about everything. I have had a really bad headache and feel really sick and I think it is because I am worrying. I think of him standing in his field not being ridden and then think about riding but then all the butterflies start.
I have someone coming tomorrow to try him and that would mean him going out on loan and moving away. I am not sure thats what I truly want but then think its his happiness that is important, not mine.
If anyone is reading this that is in close vicinity to Petersfield and would ride out with me or would like to ride him to help me and him, please get in touch.
I just don't know what to do for the best.