Vibes needed please!

[FestiveFuzz]

I could really do with some famous HHO vibes today and perhaps a bit of calming down as I currently feel like a tightly wound spring.

Following my post the other week about my youngster’s sesamoid fracture further diagnostics have revealed operating is the best chance he has of long term soundness so he’s going under this morning so they can hopefully remove the loose chips. I know GA carries risks, but that on balance this is a routine surgery and that his long term prognosis is far worse without operating but I’m still terrified of it going wrong, made worse by the fact I didn’t get to say goodbye when I left him at the hospital as he was whisked away straight after the trot up so I worry if the worst did happen he’d think I didn’t care.

I’m neurotic at the best of times and generally fairly anxious when it comes to the wellbeing of my boys, so when something does go wrong I do tend to find it hard to work out how much is natural worry, how much is me catastrophising and how much of the vet’s feedback is preparing me for worst case scenarios rather than an actual likelihood, you know when you hear “the outcome could be X and Y” I basically only seem to take in the worst possible outcome of the two and often my husband has to call back to get an accurate picture of what’s been said to calm my panic. So yeah, basically today is going to be a long old day so any handholding is greatly appreciated.

Cookies and a chai latte for anyone who got through my incessant waffle!

 

[ycbm]

Full on vibes here, let us know when he's back on his feet in the recovery room.
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[HashRouge]

Oh goodness, good luck FF! Fingers crossed for you!

 

[sheep]

Best of luck to you and your lovely boy, will keep everything crossed x

 

[rabatsa]

One of my donkeys had to have a GA for a procedure. Donkeys are a greater risk than horses for GA and he was fine.

If the risks were that great the vets would not be doing surgery.

Calming vibes and hoping that all goes well.

 

[milliepops]

sending all vibes, everything crossed for a textbook recovery for you x

 

[McFluff]

Lots of vibes for you. It's natural to really worry.

 

[Roxylola]

Oh I hate anything having a GA, it's just horrid waiting for news. Sending all the vibes your way

 

[Pearlsasinger]

It's perfectly natural to worry! Sending loads of vibes for you both come through the experience unscathed - and whatever happens remember that it is the fact that you care about thim that led you to take him there - and he knows that because of his day-to-day life with you. We don't need to vocalise our feelings to horses like we do to people, they pick up on all those things and are fully aware.

 

[Baywonder]

Sending you positive vibes - and I have absolutely everything crossed for you!

 

[Fluffypiglet]

Lots of vibes your way. I'm an absolute catastophiser too so you have my sympathy. Sounds like something you needed to get done for your horse and hopefully they will call you asap after to confirm all ok.

 

[FestiveFuzz]

Thanks all! I think having lost a youngster before in totally unrelated circumstances it makes it harder as I’ve lived through that worst case scenario once already and know how heartbreaking it is.

He should be going down this morning so it’s unlikely we’ll hear much until early afternoon. I only took dinner and breakfast with him yesterday as I wasn’t expecting such a quick turnaround so I’m hoping I might be able to pop up after work with some feeds and sneak a cuddle or two as I suspect at the very least he’ll be in until tomorrow now.

It’s hard to know what best case scenario is as whilst apical fractures tend to have the best prognosis he really did a number on it and there’s slight thickening to the suspensory branch so there’s a worry he might always be mechanically unsound but we won’t really know until they’re in and take a proper look. On the plus side he’s young and in the best hands so I’m going to try to focus on that for now.

 

[scats]

I’ve got everything crossed for you xx

 

[FestiveFuzz]

It's perfectly natural to worry! Sending loads of vibes for you both come through the experience unscathed - and whatever happens remember that it is the fact that you care about thim that led you to take him there - and he knows that because of his day-to-day life with you. We don't need to vocalise our feelings to horses like we do to people, they pick up on all those things and are fully aware.

Thanks Pearlsasinger I really needed to hear that today. I very nearly asked if I could go down last night to see him but realised I’d be doing it for selfish reasons and I knew if I got upset it’d upset him so I’ve left it be. He’s my absolute world and I adore the very bones of him and I like to think he knows that regardless. He’s my first foal and whilst I’m not big into bonds or anything like that I can say the connection I have with him is like nothing I’ve ever had before.

 

[Jeni the dragon]

Keeping my fingers crossed for you both!

 

[Red-1]

Sending vibes for today. Fingers and toes crossed the op is simple and he makes a smooth recovery.

 

[nikicb]

Sending lots of HHO vibes to you. I think most of us would feel just like you in this situation - it's awful when any of our animals have something wrong with them, and we are responsible for making the decisions about what to do regarding treatment etc, I think it's one of the hardest parts about animal ownership. x

 

[iknowmyvalue]

Sending all the positive vibes! The vets there will be so experienced, so he’s in the best place with the best chance to get it sorted. Still completely nerve wracking, keep us updated

 

[Rumtytum]

Lots of positive vibes on their way to you both ?

 

[Bernster]

Sending positive thoughts and hope you both get through it quickly and successfully!

 

[FestiveFuzz]

Eek it’s lunchtime, now the real waiting begins! Feel so sick and anxious right now. The vet was super clear that lunchtime was the absolute earliest I’d hear any news and there’s every chance it’ll be later in the afternoon before I hear anything if he gets bumped down the list due to emergencies. My trainer was there first thing on an unrelated visit so did try to pop in and see him for a nose pat but he was already being prepped for surgery.

 

[SEL]

**hugs** loads of positive vibes and I've just bought jaffa cakes so I'll send you a virtual one (or the whole packet if your nerves need them)

 

[FestiveFuzz]

**hugs** loads of positive vibes and I've just bought jaffa cakes so I'll send you a virtual one (or the whole packet if your nerves need them)

Thank you! I do love a jaffa cake, although I’ve never had the self-discipline not to scoff the whole packet in one sitting! I’ve basically been eating my feelings since yesterday when we dropped him off. Although I did force myself onto the spin bike last night before I devoured a takeaway to try and balance it up a bit! The husband came in with coffee and a muffin this morning and has also just produced doughnuts so I think I’m set for this afternoon ?

 

[Pinkvboots]

Vibes from me I hope everything went well x

 

[Griffin]

Just seen this. Lots of vibes for you both.

 

[timbobs]

Vibes for you - I hope you get some news soon!

 

[Asha]

Sending lots of vibes, hope hes better soon.

 

[paddy555]

any news FF? had everything crossed all day for your lad.

 

[Sussexbythesea]

Hope all is well. I was in a terrible state when my 19yr old had an op about 7 years ago so I know the feeling well. His op was successful and he’s still going strong at 26yrs. (Touch wood and fingers crossed etc.)

 

[FestiveFuzz]

Thanks so much for everyone’s support today, it did really help to know we weren’t going through it alone. So sorry for not updating sooner, the surgery went as well as was to be expected, they managed to remove two larger bone fragments but had to leave a smaller one embedded as it was too enmeshed in the suspensory branch ?

He’s going to stay in with them over the weekend and then hopefully he’ll be home early next week. We’ve got a long road ahead of us and a lot of it will be down to him but he’s a dude so if anyone’s got this it’ll be him! They’ll be pulling bloods on Monday so we can start IRAP treatment once he’s recovered from the surgery and then we’ll just see how we go after that.

Fortunately he’s a big bugger so I had no intention of backing him til at least next summer but now I’m thinking we’ll get him sound, find him a buddy and then turn him away for a year and see where we’re at after lots of dr green.