GemG
Well-Known Member
Long story very short....
Bred my 'keep forever' horse... over four years of blood/sweat/tears later I have a fabulous four year old mare who is albeit very green is going well and hacking out happily and confidently alone or in company. Now needs brought on with more schooling with view to eventually outings/competing.... my dream to bring her on to eventually BD. No Olympic aims, but to just potter our way hopefully up a few levels and have fun along the journey.
But I do have young family (when foal was conceived I only had one child) and now have 2. Elder child showing amazing promise for swimming and tbh swimming training and comps have recently taken over our life. My young horse on back burner. I have no time and definitely no time to compete. I work FT too. All DIY as well. Not much childcare from family at all either. Can't afford to pay someone else to school/compete... and the whole point was for me to do it. I don't want to loan her out as don't want the responsibility/possibility of her coming back in 6 months time... and a very young green horse is not an easy one to loan out to be fair.
Hardest decision I've had to make. But I am giving her up.... completely. I do keep crying, mourning the loss of my dream, of her. Selfish - yes... self indulgent - yes,.. but it hurts so very much. The right decision, yes, I have to put my children first. This is not a small break, it will like,y be minimum 10-15 year break.... if I ever get back to "it". But I feel so very sad and it will take me a long time to get over I think.
Q. Anyone else given up/sacrificed their dream? How did you deal with it and did you ever get back to it later in life? Did you still have the bottle/desire after a "gap"?
Bred my 'keep forever' horse... over four years of blood/sweat/tears later I have a fabulous four year old mare who is albeit very green is going well and hacking out happily and confidently alone or in company. Now needs brought on with more schooling with view to eventually outings/competing.... my dream to bring her on to eventually BD. No Olympic aims, but to just potter our way hopefully up a few levels and have fun along the journey.
But I do have young family (when foal was conceived I only had one child) and now have 2. Elder child showing amazing promise for swimming and tbh swimming training and comps have recently taken over our life. My young horse on back burner. I have no time and definitely no time to compete. I work FT too. All DIY as well. Not much childcare from family at all either. Can't afford to pay someone else to school/compete... and the whole point was for me to do it. I don't want to loan her out as don't want the responsibility/possibility of her coming back in 6 months time... and a very young green horse is not an easy one to loan out to be fair.
Hardest decision I've had to make. But I am giving her up.... completely. I do keep crying, mourning the loss of my dream, of her. Selfish - yes... self indulgent - yes,.. but it hurts so very much. The right decision, yes, I have to put my children first. This is not a small break, it will like,y be minimum 10-15 year break.... if I ever get back to "it". But I feel so very sad and it will take me a long time to get over I think.
Q. Anyone else given up/sacrificed their dream? How did you deal with it and did you ever get back to it later in life? Did you still have the bottle/desire after a "gap"?