I've booked my horse in with the vets to be PTS

[MuddyMonster]

Thinking of you today. Xx

 

[Michen]

Xxxxx

 

[View]

Thinking of you today.

 

[The Jokers Girl]

Thinking of you both today and so sorry you are having to go through it ?

 

[Snow Falcon]

I hope it was a peaceful passing. Thinking of you.

 

[Jeni the dragon]

You were in my thoughts today. I hope things were peaceful.

 

[Rosemary28]

Been thinking of you today x

 

[Apizz2019]

@Birker2020 I just wanted to drop a message here to say I've been thinking of you.
Sending love, strength and lots of hugs

 

[hopscotch bandit]

Thank you. She went with the sun on her back and grass in her mouth. We'd spent hours with her on the days before hand grazing and pooh picking her paddock whilst she was there and just sitting with her. The sun was always out and it was lovely to have extra time with her.

We went up at 7am on Tuesday, got her in from the field, brought her back to the stable and gave her some brekkie (with bute), then she lay down for a nap. Whilst she was sleeping we took down the paddock electric strip grazing fence.

Then we got her up, groomed her, took her for a hand graze and then at 8.30am took her into her paddock. She thought all her birthdays had come at once, all that lovely rich grass she'd always been denied so she loved it. Plenty of lovely photos (the ones below taken that morning) and cuddles and she walked around interacting with us like she always did. Gradually all the horses came in so by 9.30am we had to take her out of her field as she hated being 'on her own' and had cantered down to the gate where we were stood - she never helped herself!. So we hand grazed her until the vet arrived.

We took her into another field round the back, it was awful to watch her walk even on 3.5 bute in 24hrs she was hurting - every day we saw she'd got a little worse and her back end had got worse too but it helped me see that we'd undoubtedly done the right thing.

We walked away whilst the vet injected her and stood behind the trailers, heard a snort and a thump as she fell and she was gone.

I've had my phone switched off most of this week as i keep tormenting myself looking at videos and photos.

Thank you for all your love and wishes, its helped me a lot.

Oh and I got the job so start on the 14th. That will help distract me. And I've been off all week from work at the gym and going for long walks with my partner and dog.

 

[Red-1]

I'm glad it went as well as it could. Take care. X

 

[View]

Glad it went as well as this ever can, and that you had some good time with her.

be kind to yourself, and congrats on the new job.

 

[ycbm]

You did well HB. I'm glad you got the job and have some financial security for a couple of years too.
.

 

[Reacher]

Sorry for your loss HB.

Glad you got the job - hopefully now you have the time and space to breathe and start the healing process

 

[nikicb]

So sorry for your loss. You did the kindest thing for your horse. Now take care of yourself. Good luck in your new job. xx

 

[DizzyDoughnut]

I'm glad it went as well as it could have, Lovely photos, she looked beautiful. I love the one of you both stood with her, your love and pride in her just shines out! xx

 

[PapaverFollis]

She was lucky to have you. I'm sorry for your loss. Well done on getting the job. Take care.

 

[holeymoley]

She was lovely xx

 

[MereChristmas]

So sorry for your loss. She was beautiful

 

[claret09]

lovely photo's hun. she was so lucky to have you. you have been amazingly brave. lots of love

 

[PurBee]

Sorry for your loss HB. Those photos are gorgeous, im glad you got beautiful sunny last days to enjoy with her. I love the pic of you both with her....her mouth is grinning alongside you too...i can see her goofy teeth...so adorable!
Big hugs...i hope you’re coping ok.
The new job news is such a blessing , congrats!
X

 

[Rumtytum]

So sorry for you and the loss of your much loved beautiful girl.
Take care of yourself and good luck with your new job.

 

[Emilieu]

I’m so sorry for your loss, she was so beautiful. Congratulations on the job, I’m so glad you got it

 

[Regandal]

She was a beautiful horse, glad it went as well as it could. No more pain, she’s free x

 

[brighteyes]

I also forgot to congratulate you on getting the job x

 

[Goldenstar]

I glad that bit over for you the run up to day is horrible .
Everyday you will feel better you may have some blips but it does pass .
Its great you got the job .

 

[Pearlsacarolsinger]

I'm glad that the day went as well as it could and that you are not left 2nd guessing yourself. Lovely photos!

And congratulations on your new job! You did extremely well to interview well at such a difficult time.

 

[Spirit2021]

I geld it want wall.

 

[hopscotch bandit]

Thank you everyone.

We are visiting the yard later- it's something I'm dreading but we will get through it.

I'm holding my stable for the time being, but I don't think I can contemplate not having a horse in my life again. It's much to early to be thinking about it, I need sometime out.

I feel mentally drained by it all, all the weeks and months getting up at 5am and going before work to the yard, hoping and praying she would be sounder, all the hope that the Arthramid would work, the constant up and downs, as she see sawed between sound and lame and watching the gradual decline.

Feel a sense of relief about it all but feel sad we didn't realise the navicular was so compromised before having the arthramid for the coffin joint done as we'd not have put her through it.

But you can always be wise after the event.

 

[hopscotch bandit]

lovely photo's hun. she was so lucky to have you. you have been amazingly brave. lots of love

Thank you for your support throughout. X