Well thats a big fat no, my confidence is on the floor, if i cant get him to turn left in walk in the school there is no way i am going to hack him confidently. i can get on him in the yard and ride him the 4 min walk to his field, at the moment i dont trust him to go further.
HK while I'm sorry that you're feeling like this I think its important to be honest with yourself so I commend you for that. In order to get him in consistent work it has to feel achievable for you. I would definitely seek out someone either to come to you very regularly, or else send him to someone that can both work him and teach you how to, so you both get some benefits from it.
A massive success and built my confidence up. I am taking him to a trainer this weekend so i think that will set us on the right path, he will possible stay there for a bit if the trainer thinks it will help 
Well, its been a long time coming but we finally had a good day!!!!!
For the last week i have really been working on his manors, forwards/ backwards, moving his legs, standing still, grooming him in the field and instilling in him that he cannot graze whilst im grooming and its all been going great. When we went to the vets its took us 40 mins to load so we practiced that again with great success, he is now walking himself up into the trailer happily
And to top it all off i got on board, he stool still at the mounting block, i then hopped on for 10 mins, walked on a lose rein and was just doing figures of 8s and changing directions with my legs, keeping him off the fence line and he relaxed on the left rein! He started to nap toward my husband so a bit of leg and he quickly stopped
Im tipping i know but its been a while! and this saddle has been on the rack for 4 months as i preferred the GP
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Interestingly i went to clean his sheath yesterday as id noticed he was kicking his belly and swatting it a lot the last few days and there is really dark red/ brown clumps in there. I didnt want to meddle incase its dry blood so he is having a sheath cleaner come and look at him in a few hours. Can you imagine if that has actually got a lot to do with a lot :O
Sooo a little update
He went away to an amazing lady for a week, I went and had lessons everyday and we worked through a lot.
Luckily he did the strange gate with her and she was able to come to the conclusion it was tension over his back from the rider. She also found that his tmj was sore and I am basically quasi modo and am super crooked, he also wasn’t happy in his bridle or saddle. He also is a bit c shaped on one side of his rib cage. We stripped everything back to a rope halter and bareback pad and it all moved forward. He didn’t understand to give to pressure, and he had no clue what I was doing with my seat hence the unable to halt and jogging malarkey.
She taught me how to use my seat, I can now halt ( I’m so excited about this I do about 100 every 20 mins ) when he goes to jog I can feel it and ask him not to with my butt 😠nearly two years we have been trying to crack this! I’ve learned about where my weight goes, how to use my weight to turn, yield and shoulder in and it’s all going super!
One of the biggest things was the bit! I had him in a bomber snaffle and the trainer tried a parelli myler c3 scary looking thing and he was so soft in it it was unreal. I then went and brought the same bridle and bit , we popped it on and I couldn’t stop him, he didn’t want to take any contact, my trainer then got on to see if it was me and he was very unhappy buckleing behind, threatened a rear he hated it so lord knows what the difference , we changed to hers and he was butter again! Luckily my lovely trainer gave me her bridle and bit (exactly the same) and she took mine, she said she had never seen a horse react so differently to essentially the same bit of kit.
I have changed his saddle to a solutions freestyle and it’s staying in place, not slipping , it’s small so fits nice and snug in the right place. He is happy having it put on and after being shown how to stop him moving at the mounting block he now comes and picks me up.
Still so much to work on, I’m trying to just focus on my butt , hips, head up and pushing my hands forward and we are going good. His expression looks happier, we can walk!!! In the last year I think I’ve managed to keep him in walk for five mins then we begin to trot for 20 mins as I couldn’t control the jog let alone halt.
This was yesterday at home, I’m having to half halt the rein to get him down but I’m using my leg and but at the same time, hoping the rein aid will get less and less! We did this for 30 mins in walk, we did so many halts, this one isn’t as sharp as I was practicing keeping him soft during the halt but a massive improvement to getting a halt 2 laps of the school after asking ðŸ˜
Loads to work on but feel like we are getting the foundations in place and I have been reminded of what a cracking pony I have! View attachment 35720
