I can understand why you have lost your nerve, sounds like you have had a rough time. I think it's probably too soon to know if you've lost your nerve with your youngster or riding in general. I would look for someone locally who is a good and calm rider, used to youngsters and looking for a...
I've managed to log in today for the first time in months! so just read your sad news. I'm so sorry & I know how you feel having lost my girl last October. It gets easier but it's a roller coaster ride of emotions 😢
I think the relationship between horse and rider appears better with Charlotte & Valegro and his way of going has been more consistent therefore, my money is on Valegro.
I'm amazed at how many dogs are being stolen. Some from gardens, house break ins, when being walked or if they get away from owner and then caught by an opportunist thief.
The thought of them being used for bait is heart breaking.
I couldn't not stop, it wouldn't matter where I was going and whether or not it would make me late. I would stop, get the animal to a vet if alive and report to police. If there was a tag on the collar I would also ring the owner.
I've been with NFU for years. Had to have my beautiful girl PTS at the end of October and they have been sympathetic, efficient and no quibbles on the policy.
Don't want to hijack this post but there is a male Siberian husky missing in Yorkshire, his name is Murphy and his owners are desperate to get him home. For more details please look on twitter
@findmurphyhusky or www.facebook.com/Getmurphyhome
Thanks
Ann